Tuesday, September 24

I missed my first class of the semester today. Three weeks of perfect attendance, GONE. Three weeks probbaly doesnt seem like shit, but yo, considering how often I use to miss class, its a huge accomplishment for me. I'm afraid that now that I finally missed one, there'll just be many many more to come.

Y'know, I feel like I'm tied to this huge ass rubber band. Whenever I feel like I am finally going somewhere with my life, I get snapped right back to where I started. From the outset of this school year, I told myself that I was going to study my ass off and get my shit together. No more missiing classes, no more half assed study nights, no more bullshit. I started off real well, studying at every possible moment and keeping the socializinig to a real minimum. However, I feel that things have changed in the past few days. I've been slacking off a lil. Like, I'm still keeping up with my work n all, but it seems like nothing is sinking in. I keep on letting my mind wander off and I end up daydreaming about stupid ass shit. I know this doesnt seem like a big deal but yo, I aint playing this year. Gotta keep it real serious. Gotta pick up my GPA, gotta get a job.

I dont know. For some reason, I feel that as much as I try to progress in my life, I'll always get snapped right back to where I was. As much as I study and try to get serious about life, I always end up slacking off and sitting around w/ my thumb up my ass. And as much as I try and move on, something pulls me right back to square one.

Tuesday, August 20

I am taking some time to find the person I once was.

To all the people that have been there for me this summer, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

To YOU, I am forever sorry for what I did.

Sunday, August 11

I'm sorry.

Friday, August 2

Its been about 36 hours since my loveboat experience came to an end. And after about a day and half of relection and rememberance can I actually find the words to describe it. Despite all the boredom, awkward moments, hardships, diarrhea, stomach cramps, giant mosquitos, and heartaches...this has been, quite possibly, the best month of my life. As much as it pains me to revisit my loveboat memories, mainly because I miss it so much, I feel compelled to look over the pictures I have taken and the VCD the counselors made for us every few hours.

Its really funny how things turned out. In the beginning, I was so unbelieveably miserable. Now, I am unbelievably sad that things are over. But I suppose every good thing must come to and end. Well at least in my life they do. Now I must revert to the old boring, overly-responsible, anal-retentive Kyle and leave loveboat Kyle behind. Perhaps one of the reasons why I enjoyed loveboat so much was because I was able to step out of myself for a lil while. I was able to do things I wouldnt normally do in my regular life. Things like being carefree, being reckless...drunk(?).

However, despite how much I have gained on this trip, I have also paid a huge price. Well, someone else has paid a huge price to be more exact. During my time on Loveboat, while I was busy having fun and not being me, I hurt someone, whom I care deeply about and whom is the last person in the world that deserves to be hurt. And for that, I am deeply sorry.

So for the next week, I will be bumming around Taiwan, chilling with fams, catching up with relatives I havent seen yet and shoping for folks back home. Please email me or IM and let me know if you guys want anything from Taiwan. Aiites, guess thats it. Payce.

Thursday, July 25

Things are winding down here in Taiwan. Loveboat is ending in a couple days and after a week of chilling with fams, I'ma have to return to my exciting and stimulating days of watching TV and surfing eBay. I will be sad when this is over, but all good things must come to an end right?

We took a 3 day trip to Yi Lan on monday. Its in Northeast Taiwan and was really beautiful. I think I would have had mad fun but I got a stomach virus the very first day, so that fucking sucked. I had massive stomach cramps and diarrhea. Yummy huh?

Went to this club called Plush yesterday. Its suppose to be one of the nicest/most expensive clubs in Taiwan. I must say that it was well worth the $700 NT door. The place was very well decorated, lots of nice couches and waitresses wearing skimpy ass shit. hehe. And they spun the best hip-hop that I have heard in Taiwan so far. I was very impressed. My only complaint was that the dance floor was really small. I also ran into 2xs Amy there. She was w/ her g/f's and seemed to be having a really good time on loveboat as well. Too bad I couldnt chill much because of my....bowel problems.

For anyone who doesnt have anything to do next summer and is between the ages of 18-23, GO ON LOVEBOAT~! This includes you Brian. I'm sure you can lie about the age thing and come tear shit up here in Taiwan.